In this memoir for general readers, Cilliers describes his inner turmoil while hiding his sexuality during his six years in the ministry in South Africa in the 1970s and early '80s. When originally published in 1997, the book sparked controversy on homosexuality in the church in South Africa. This updated edition integrates the many letters of both support and condemnation the author received after the original publication, from clergy, colleagues, relatives, friends, and strangers around the world. The book contains b&w photos from the author's personal collection. Cilliers is now a TV producer. Distributed in the US by International Publishers Marketing. Annotation ©2013 Book News, Inc., Portland, OR (booknews.com)